It's always nice to feel wanted.

There comes to a point in everyone's life where things begin to fall apart and you feel like you gotta be the rock that holds everything together. Actually, this process occurs often... but this is where I'm heading. It's difficult, especially when you don't have anyone to really lean on or talk to. It's even more difficult, when you rely on your best friend(s) to be there and they're not there. When you need someone more than ever but no one's there to catch you when you fall. That's when you lose hope, reliability, and trust. Sometimes, it's unfortunate that they aren't on the other side meeting you half-way. But it's tiring when it becomes repetitive. Maybe it's a lack of communication, or better yet lack of care.

One side of me is holding this against them.
The other side, God tells me to forgive instantaneously and let it go.

I think I'll listen to God. He knows best.
But I can't trust/rely on you as much as I did before.
I can't be let down anymore...

God has never forsaken me. And he never will!
He's the best friend, that I know will never disappoint me.

I hope that you do come back again someday. Sometime.. soon.